So there’s this really amazon guy that in my life now. Yeah, I know I’ve always said I’m not worthy of being happy, to be loved, or even cared about…but maybe, just maybe I actually am. I’ve been through a lot of heartbreaks and cried gallons of tears over A good chunk of time, but maybe all that was meant for something. Meant for a HUGE picture I knew nothing about?
I know I’ve went completely off my topic, I ramble too much. But I have this sweetheart named Cameron. Pretty cute that our names fit together. Like it was just meant to be. Could I really be that lucky? I don’t know yet, but I’ll hope so. I’ve grown up a lot I think. Maybe ready for a relationship that’s supposed to last forever?
Cameron Allen Bailey, kinda funny what happens when I honestly feel like I don’t mean shit to anyone, you come into my life and make me feel like I mean everything to you! That’s all I wanted. You make me feel like I’m loved and meant for something. That I should stop feeling bad for myself and accept every imperfection I have. For once in my complicated life, someone has actually made me feel worth it. Every little tear I’ve cried, every little pain I’ve endured, somehow just thinking about everything that’s happened in my past, you make it worth living through. You let me cry. You let me be silly. Be happy. Be who I’ve always wanted to be, but never had anyone to be that person for. I promise to be everything that you’ve ever needed! Ever even wished for, I promise I’ll be that person. I wanna make you as happy as you make me. I don’t know how I can do that, but I’ll figure out something. Just for you. Just to see your amazing smile and your perfect brown eyes, I do anything.
I’m not the type of girl to half ass things, and I can’t say how I feel so it’s easier to put it in words. I wish I could say these things to you, but if I tried my mind would run so fast I couldn’t figure out how to say it. But I’ve went around the main point I want you to know: I LOVE YOU. To some people writing it, typing it, doing something other than making it heard doesn’t mean the same. I do say I love you every time I with you, but there’s still a little fear that tells me you’ll leave and that everything I want with you will disappear. That’s the biggest fear I have, I never wanna lose you. I don’t know what I’d do without you. I know I’d be a huge mess, worse than I was before I loved you. I never wanna go back to that. You’re my happiness.
Everything’s happier with you.
I’ve never been happier with anyone else but you.
My friends honestly don’t know how much I love you, and I think you don’t know either. All I think about is how I wanna see how my life is with you, just so right now, I’ll have something amazing to look forward to. You’re perfect in every way a person can be.
I wish I could say this! Another thing I hate about myself.
I could go on and on forever and say so much, but I need to save some of it for a day that I hope happens.
I love you baby. I always will. No matter what.❤❤